When you ahve lots of works but no energy, the result can be seen in me, whole morning doing nothing. Due to period cramp, I feel so exhausted and sleepy for the whole morning.

Checked with lao ta last week, my year end increment would be something like maximum $200. So my salary for 2009 is $3200. If this happens, I’m gonna look for new job again. I’m hoping something like $3500 for year 2009.

Got to start SLOPE/W for Bt Batok after lunch, and adjust tender costing accordingly. Though it’s damn hard, WAKE UP and GANBATTE!!

Missed one episode of ugly betty last week.. sigh. And yesterday’s Marche was super nice. Today is my 4.5 years anniversary. I hope we can remain this loving forever.

It’s time to stand up and take notice, as well as be noticed. If there is anything you have always wanted to do, now is the time to do it. You will never again be as young as you are now, so what are you waiting for? It is time to break free.
Haha just copied this from my horoscope for today. I have always wanted to do works that dun consume my brain much, and i really hate GEOTECHNICAL. I’m kinda depressed today, thinking that I may be stuck in jobs that I dun like forever.

I gotta admit that I dun like and very poor at technical knowledge. I like jobs that require logic thinking only. And I kinda like GIS, using GIS to register information. It’s quite fun actually. But who will pay me high to do this kind of easy task?

Ah keat told me that his fren earning $5k per month from sales commision. Her job scope require her to prepare quotation, contact clients etc. Simple rite? I’m interested too. I hope somehow a potential employer will suddenly pop into my blog and offer me the job. hahha..

Finally manage to buy this book after highly recommended by bk. The two books that I had read were stupid. First is “PS I love you” – great idea but badly written. Then it’s “the five people you (or should be called Eddie instead of you) meet in heaven”. Just now my best fren, cy recommended “sarah diary”. Something like that. And also “Tuesday with Morrie”

Veronika is a young girl who lost motivation in her daily life. One interesting sentence – she lives a same and repeated boring life because she’s the one who chose it to be that way. Meaningful indeed.

I feel that my life is boring too. And full of suffering. Seeing my parents getting older and beloved kids at home becoming adult is no easy task. I really wish time can stop now so that I can maintain at this stage forever. I will never able to accept the fact that one day my parents are 80 years old or leave me one day.

Miles away I may be, home is where my heart always belongs. I love you.

The secret and things that my bf’s best fren wanted to talk to him for so long finally disclosed. Surpisingly indeed, it was all abt me. He’s worried that his buddy will fall into marrying me one day, as i was a lousy and we quarrel all the time, according to his observation. WTF!! All the while he’s been acting like very close and fren with me, so I’m naive to act like mistreating my bf in front of him (just for fun sometimes!). I thought he’s part of my fren too, and I’ve been stupid enough to have this thought. And just becos i rejected my bf to iron clothes for him, he said what kind of attitude is this. So, gfs are borned to iron clothes for their bfs? You dun have the right to say this at all. You think you’re a good husband by talking abt sexes all the time and even sleep with people’s wife? You are 100 times worse than me. And dun judge our relationship just by your stupid observation. What purposely work late to avoid me? Only the person who did this thing before will have this kind thought in their mind. So the next time I see him, I’m gonna keep my mouth and eyes shut for this person (and perhaps his few other frens as well who i believe talked bad abt me)

Anyway, I’m glad that my bf defended it for me. He say – dun simply judge her as you dun really know her well. Love you dear. You’re the best!

I’m getting nervous and worried about my visit to dentist later. Spacer, extraction and the cost. I’m so worried rite now. But reading the new website that I found about braces really useful. Give me some courage. Just hang in there. JUST DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After postponing appointment with ubi clinicc last month, today is the day of my appointment. Kinda nervous if the dentist is not friendly, if he scold me for not taking care of my teeth. But that’s ridiculuos rite. If the bitch can do it, why not me? I’m only hesitating to do it here or back in jb. But I will never discuss this matter with anyone, I just feel extremely embarass. Plan to tell them only after I got my braces on. Preferably a ceramic one since I’m so old already.

Be brave, be strong, be confident.. use all my courage to go there today after work! Dun be scared. Just for consultation only. Hopefully the cost is affordable. Less than $3k with ceramic. It’s gonna be OK!!!!!!

Feel extremely exhausted today. I’m avoiding question/discussion with lao ta becos i know he likes to talk abt theory which might make me dozes in front of him. Tonite really got to sleep at 9.30pm. No drama and no heavy dinner. My weight is 51kg now. Want to reduce to 48/48kg. After putting braces i guess my weight will drop due to unable to bite hard food.

Rite now I’m really truly sleepy. Adding to my tiredness is the shoulder pain. Argghh.. wanna go home!

Before today end, I’m gonna set a checklist on my works to be completed next week:-

1) Finite element analysis

2) Finalise SI location (damn troublesome the local guy really dunno the location or want to spend more time with me?? hahha)

Guess the number one list also takes me whole week to complete. Sigh. Ganbatte! Must master this software so that I can demand for more increment end of this year!

It’s friday again. Another week comes to end. If it’s really so fast, how come I’m waiting until my neck is sooo long for the salary day every month. Today I have withdrew $1k. And now my bank got more than $10k  after working for 6 months here. Sometimes I feel that life here is dead boring but sometimes I wish I come here to work after graduate. Until now not many of my frens come over here to work. They’re willing to earn far less in my country for certain reason. Guess they’re too comfortable with their life in own country.

Talking about my country, really dunno how to describe. Story by story revealed everyday by all the politicians. Like a drama.. with long long episodes. But deep in my heart, I really dun think that he committed the sodomy and it’s indeed funny when those who were obviously linked with the accuser can simply deny it just like that. You all think that we are brainless? Come on.. even a small kid knows what’s going on. I sincerely wish that “he” the murderer can be brought to justice one day. Cos what type of human can blow up a person just like that?? Even a cat or dog not deserve to be treated that way. Super champion leader. I wonder whether “you all” are still doing your prayers or not. And I wonder whether “you all” can have good nite’s sleep everyday.

For me I feel that a free thinker who never believe in god but who do at least one good thing in his everyday weighs thousands more than those religious but harming people around them. God has eyes up there and there will be one day the karma will come. So for the guys who are fighting for justice out there, keep up the good work. I sincerely wish that you can succeed and the culprits will be sentenced (though it seems impossible to convict such a super VIP).

Read an email just now which suggested that we should start your day by telling yourself “the purpose of today is to accomplish…”

So, what’s mine for today? Even after work, I dunno what to do. noon is working overnite again. Pity him work like dog. But he’s very nice, he willing to spend money on me, and food to enjoy together. He’ll be a nice husband.

I notice that I really need deadline to push myself. If not, I’ll procrastinate and surf internet.. like what i’m doing now. OMG my lao ta just pass by, better start working. ciao!